the settlement of unhappiness

I haven’t felt a moment of peace, a moment of complete silence, a moment of relaxation in such a long while. it has seemed like forever ago since I could feel my chest being lifted and floating away. no heaviness of deadlines, ignorance and self-doubt weighing me down. no fogged or clouded head weighing me down once again. the ability to be in the moment. the ability to be able to focus and not have everything so cloudy. the ability for it to not look as if i’m looking through a television screen. the ability to be able to be by myself but surrounded with others at the same time. the ability to not have self-doubt in what i do and who i am. the ability to be able to talk to people and not shy away. let’s just say, it has been a while since i have been able to look up at the sky into a sea of clouds or at the moon and feel at peace. it seems as if it has been three blue moons since the last time i was able to love myself and be free of my thoughts and those words of others that has seemed to have locked me up from the potential that i can put out. i hope one day, i can freely be myself. be happy. be able to look up at the sky and feel like i can fly without being pulled down from the heaviness of unhappiness that has settled within me.


pastel paradise

Dear Reader,
this collection was inspired by my love for pastel colours which I’ve loved since absolutely forever. I’ve wanted to do this since forever and I love all the looks. these looks actually were saved in my drafts for well over a year as they were going to be part of a completely different collection. this is what turned out to be.  #pastel #summer
dear reader, I hope you enjoy these looks!

books shamelist

Dear Reader,

here are some books that I need to read. I have been meaning to read these since forever and am embarrassed to say I have not.

  • emma (jane austen)
  • persuasion (jane austen)
  • gone with the wind (margaret mitchell)
  • bridget jone’s diary (helen fielding)
  • gulliver’s travels (jonathan swift)
  • the great gatsby (f. scott fitzgerald)
  • les miserables (victor huge)
  • anne of green gables (lucy maud montgomery)
  • emily of new moon (lucy maud montgomery)
  • the blue castle (lucy maud Montgomery)
  • jane of lantern hill (lucy maud Montgomery)
  • the prince and  the pauper (mark twain)
  • the paris secret (karen swan)
  • the diary of anne frank (anne frank)
  • the lord of the rings (j.r.r. tolkien)
  • the da vinci code (dan brown)

Dear Reader, I would love to know the books that you have read or not read from this list.


a few notes about me

Dear Reader,

there is not a lot about my character online as I am anonymous and wish to stay as such due to… reasons. anywho, I thought it would be nice for you to know a bit more about me. so, here we go!

  • as you know my nickname is Sam, which I basically use everywhere online
  • I am soon going to be entering university! it is both a crazy and scary thought
  • my favorite subjects would be math, art, english and history
  • I love animals! most animals I am just okay with admiring them with a screen between us, but I have recently been more okay with kittens! my favourite animals are horses and beluga whales
  • i love fashion and designing my own clothes and outfits. I do a lot of illustrations and sketches. especially all over my notes for school.
  • going along with my love of fashion, I also make some of my own clothes. I learnt to sew from my mother
  • I love writing. I have always kept a diary with me, although I am a little behind in writing
  • I always keep a journal near me incase I have an idea for a story, a poem, an illustration or anything
  • I love to read. my favourite genres are usually historical fiction, fiction, fantasy, biographies, poetry, adventures… I think I just like anything that is written well
  • I love watching youtube and my favourite channels to watch include, connor franta, doddleoddle, conan gray, chewingsand, daniel j layton, cayllles, banana jamana, notjustblonde, lucy moon, tessa violet and sooo many more. maybe i’ll make a post dedicated into my favourite youtubers.

Dear Reader, I hope you enjoyed learning more about me!


pastel pink flare

pastel pink flare
this look is very me to say the least. it’s completely pink and gold, and has a flowey material for the dress, and it has the flat ozford shoes. this look consists of a light pinkish peach flared dress with a pair of light pink oxford flat shoes. accessories include a colour combination of pastel pink and gold, which consists of a phone case, watch, a necklace and a few rings. #pastel #summer

Splendid slip-on shoes
62 CAD –

Rachel Jackson long necklace
210 CAD –

Nine West watch
53 CAD –

Opal ring
3.78 CAD –

Tech accessory

pastel gingham

pastel gingham
this is perfect for a quick outfit to throw on. this look consists of a pastel purple gingham dress that is quite wide and loose. accessories include white shoes, a white and gold watch, gold rings, and glasses. #pastel #summer

Scoop neck dress
42 CAD –

Beyond skin shoes
235 CAD –

Kate Spade rose gold tone watch
250 CAD –

Madewell jewelry
28 CAD –

Oversized round glasses
13 CAD –

pastel blue chiffon

pastel blue chiffon
this look is elegant and sweet, and perfect for a summer party. the look consists of a pastel blue chiffon skirt and a high neck light coloured top, which is paired with pastel blue classic heels (which I absolutely adore). accessories include a pastel satchel, a watch and a simple necklace. #pastel #summer

Puma shirt
115 CAD –

Sonia by Sonia Rykiel chiffon skirt
310 CAD –

High heel shoes
120 CAD –

Chanel blue purse
6,380 CAD –

Native Gem chain necklace
110 CAD –

Red jewelry
67 CAD –

skater girl

skater girl
this outfit is perfect for a day out. it’s named skater girl as it seems like an outfit that one would probably wear. from the colours of the look to the accessories. the look consists of a gray mini skirt, a white tee, and gray converse. accessories include a gray watch and a beanie. #pastel #summer

Rag bone white crop top
51 CAD –

Être Cécile mini skirt
105 CAD –

Converse glitter shoes
76 CAD –

CLUSE rose gold jewelry
145 CAD –

Icebreaker beanie cap
33 CAD –

summer parties

summer parties
this look is perfect for the summer parties one may attend. the light brown/tan pleated skirt is paired with a lace crop top. lace covered block heels are added to give a finish to the look. accessories include a watch, necklace, satchel and some gold rings. #pastel #summer

A L C white shirt
240 CAD –

Acne Studios faux suede skirt
425 CAD –

Dorothy Perkins evening purse
36 CAD –

Rachel Jackson long chain necklace
210 CAD –

Kate spade watch
185 CAD –

Madewell bracelet
28 CAD –

Wind Caressed from Penny Black – buy online
14 CAD –